Wednesday, September 30, 2009

HOME

I just did an hour of yoga on {yogatoday} for the first time in a very long time. I feel wonderful. And a bit tired. I've lost a lot of the strength I had built up when I was doing it regularly. I was careful not to push myself beyond what I could do today . . . But it was sad to realize how much ground I had lost. I want to commit to doing this more often. The session I did today was focused on opening up the shoulders, the heart and the throat chakra for doing a shoulder stand - which I did! I don't think I've actually ever been able to do a shoulder stand before! I didn't hold it as long as the instructor did, but I was pleased nonetheless . . . Plus the session was filmed in Sedona where was I recently reunited with my nearest and dearest friends- so that was a nice memory.

One of the things the instructor said really hit me. She was talking about the throat chakra (5th chakra) and how it is a bridge between our hearts and our minds and how it can help us become more connected to everything around us. When it is purified, we can communicate more clearly and become more balanced people by connecting our hearts and minds with each other and to connect with the Oneness of life (some call this god/dess, some call this the energy that holds atoms together . . . etc, I haven't quite decided what I call it yet). She said something that I immediately wrote down and decided to set as my intention for the session and for the day . . . for my life, really. And that was this (paraphrased to the best of my memory):

"I want to diminish the state of separation I have created in my life
and come to a space of oneness
and a state of union"

The way I want to apply this, especially in light of my recent reunion with old friends, is that I don't want this separation due to space to keep me from being united and one with my family and friends in heart and mind. I also want to melt away all the things that are holding me back - that I am allowing to hold me back - from being connected to people and places and things here in New England. I have had a really hard time feeling at home here - esp when the progress I make in connection is undone so easily by a trip home and a reminder of what I am missing out on.

I want to feel at home.
Wherever I lay my head, I want that to be home to me.
Whoever I meet, I want them to be brother and sister to me.
I want to grow my roots deep in to the earth.
I want my branches to reach high up to the heavens.
I want to leave each place my foot steps better than it was before my footprint was there.
I want peace to trail behind me and to run out before me.
I want compassion, respect and understanding to fill each square inch of air between you and me.
I want you to be sure of my deep and abiding love, as I am in yours.
I want you to feel at home.
I want to feel at home.
I want to make a home.
I want a home.

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