Saturday, April 28, 2007
i am in a conundrum
so . . .i needed to increase my cash flow. being self-employed makes it hard to really survive.
so i applied for a seasonal position at the oregon zoo.
i've been invited to come to a group interview in a few days . . . the thing is, i really really enjoy the freedom i have to make my own schedule and it would suck to give that up . . . but the extra cash would be really nice. and i might get to work as concert staff this summer - that would be cool! patty griffin is coming to the zoo in july!!! or they might make me wash dishes . . . i dunno.
i can't decide if i will actually go to the interview or not . . .
if i got the job i would have to drive all the way there . . . that's a crappy part of town to have to drive to on the freeway . . . i wouldn't be able to just live my life on the fly - and during the summer living on the fly would be awesome. but i would have the extra cash flow to afford to do things like go to concerts, drive to the beach, eat out with friends, pay for art supplies for TADA, etc.
grah! do i give up my freedom to gain a different kind of freedom that comes with being able to pay bills and eat regularly? or do i keep my ability to rarely if ever have to set an alarm in exchange for hardly being able to go out with friends and still have a good conscience about spending the money?
i am in a conundrum.
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a huge chunk of my close-nit support group has just graduated from college today and are moving away (most to alaska . . . one to LA to become a real rock star) this week. and i am feeling quite melancholy and nostalgic. :( it's been an emotional day - it is the end of an era! cheer me up?
say it don't spray it 11:10 PM
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