Friday, February 23, 2007
friday afternoon
i'm just sitting here, "working from home" (fridays and sundays are the days i usually don't work at all, the other days i work pretty hard) while the husband practices bass for when he plays next week for our friend's show.it's a nice feeling. wearing my slippers. listening to some good tunes. doing the crossword in the willamette week.
i went to my first of four one-on-one pilates sessions this morning. it kicked my - tush - for sure. i will be sore tomorrow! but i am glad i am doing it . . . i think it will help my self-image to know that i am doing something good for my body.
and the studio is close enough to my house that i could walk. if i had the money, i would do it all the time . . . maybe i could just look into group mat classes.
parts of me simply just oscilate between wanting to be militantly aggressive about getting into shape so i can feel good about myself or the other option of giving up hopelessly, staying in bed, eating chocolate and watching tv.
i know. that doesn't sound like me. but it constantly plays at the back of my mind.
and what do i do? i usually compromise by landing in the middle. barely any exercise, hardly any tv, no laying in bed all day, and filling my schedule chock-full so that i don't get lost in the down time and quiet moments and really start evaluating my life.
i am happy when i am distracted and busy.
why all the self-disclosure? i don't really know. maybe it is because it is lent. or because i'm having some self-reflection time. maybe i am going borderline crazy. maybe i think that not many people read my blog anymore so i am safe being a bit more personal and not caring who finds out.
and i guess i haven't really disclosed much . . . i am just feeling vulnerable today.
peace . . .
the dread pirate tj
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